Sunday, July 25, 2010

It's nice to be a PGY-2 going back and doing things you've already done for a second time - makes you feel like you actually know something about something! Sometimes. Other times it's extremely challenging because you are viewed by most attendings to be able to do everything yourself and asking PGY-1 type questions is frowned upon. Freedom always comes with a price!

I had my first palliative patient this week who actually expired during the consultation. While I was trying to clean his face with warm towels so the stains of death didn't disturb his family, I noticed that I no longer have overwhelming feelings of sadness when people die. I'm not sure that's a good thing. This month on palliative I have yet to cry and considering I treated someone the other day who's younger than I am and who is dying of metastatic cancer - I'm starting to wonder what's wrong with me. Is my skin growing in too thick after many years of being tender-hearted? Has my disillusionment with residency extended to not emotionally engaging with my patients? Or is it a compensation for one of my colleagues that cries over every patient. Who knows.

Back to OB next! I've delivered 2 of my own babies so far and have another due this week so I'm pretty stoked!

Monday, July 12, 2010

Dear Squirrel

Dear Squirrel,
I know you have baby/adolescent squirrels that are running around with you chucking chestnuts out of the tree on me, my car, my path, but WHY DID YOU HAVE TO EAT MY PEA PLANTS??? That's where I draw the line!!!!!

I hate when a delivery goes well, but not perfect, and I come home and obsess about it. Is this going to be the story of my career?

Sunday, July 04, 2010