I am now in the post exam period of every second thought being "why did I put THAT".

Exam number 2 tomorrow. Hopefully once it's over I can just relax and not think about these things anymore.

The exam is tomorrow morning and I am shitting my pants and can't sleep. My friend who wrote it today said it wasn't bad... we'll see. I just tried to cram some nephro... so not happening.

Hello objective 66... I vaguely remember you... ish.

I'm starting to feel burned out. Only 4 days to go until the first exam and 6 days until I'm freeeeeeeeeeee. I plan on riding my bike every day, every darn day!

545 pages later, I finish objective 99... now to go back and actually learn stuff.

A wonderful young man that I went to high school with has died from melanoma. Of all the people from high school that I remember fondly, he perhaps sticks out the most. He was a non-judgmental, gentle soul who brought a smile to many faces in his too short life. He will be missed. RIP Doug Wright.



Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

W.H. Auden

although Doug wasn't my working week or Sunday rest, I think this is a beautiful poem for a beautiful person.

I'm really bad at turning down people who I think are seeking narcotics. Tonight I said no and then she acted/was all offended that I suggested she had been to the ER for narcotics several times and she freaked out and then my attending gave in on my behalf... I'm bad at being firm.

84. f.u. STD guidelines and the fact that all of skin is one objective. seriously - all of dermatology in one objective??

lucky objective number 79 - only 20 more to go! Then to go back and read it all again because I'm sure I didn't absorb much the first time.

I'm on objective number 57. I'm starting to feel like I'm not even paying attention anymore. It's like I'm robot studying... not sure it's actually going to help me in the end. Good thing I can take it again in the fall without consequences as I'm doing my fellowship. Not sure I could think of doing anything differently to study though. argh.