I don't want every post on this blog to be about my angst of being a new doctor but it's what I'm going through. All the time. I re-live cases in my head as if they were OSCE stations and realize that in the moment I screwed up, I didn't think of this or that, and that sometimes you don't get second chances. Sometimes you do, and most of the time things work out ok anyway, but someday these things are going to come and bite me in the ass. Some day I will accidentally do harm. It makes me sad/angry/depressed/anxious.

my biological clock just ticked... for 30 seconds

Tonight we went out with friends who have just had a new baby. I think that as I held her my biological clock may have started ticking for about 30 seconds. Then she started to fuss and cry and it stopped. Thanks goodness!

On my Christmas Vacation I....

carried the Yule Log down off the hill

saw a Pheasant close-up for the first time

watched Ben stick his hands under the skin of a turkey... it was gross

went to visit the smallest distillery in Scotland - Edradour

Played on the beach in Balmeadie

went for a big walk in Pitlochery

and had lots of fun!