I really hate it when you work really really hard on something and have it reviewed by people and then someone comes along and rips it apart. It makes me very very anxious. My level of anxiety is very high right now. My heart is racing and ugh. I want to kill someone. Deep breaths.
I got a new computer! It's a red little racy thing named cherry. I know, I should have named it Hal or something else nerdish but what can I say. I just learned that there may be a hope in hell of me getting all my music back from my ipod back onto my computer too! I'm trying the trick right now and I'll tell you if it works.
In other news, there's really not a whole lot of news! I've been vacationing in Scotland and now I'm back and started an elective in a family doc's office this week. The doc is really fun, although it's a bit less independent than I'm used to. I guess this is what you get for setting up electives with people who aren't used to having clerks. It's only 2 weeks, so I can do anything for two weeks, especially with such a nice person!
Scotland was great. I bagged a Monro, went to high tea, went to see sheep dog trials, went and did the Elie chain walk and many other things I can't quite remember now! It was a full week!
Me on top of Schehallion!Today, my computer died. It blue screened and then wouldn't boot and failed to find the operating system. I think my hard drive bit the dust. Now it's in the little computer shop down the way being looked at for chances of resurrection. Hopefully they will be able to save my music and a few school folders. There isn't much on there that I really need - most of my important things are backed up, but my music isn't. Stupid computers.
Scotland was great. Amazingly great. Relaxing, full of outdoors activities, and featuring one great wedding dress trying on! I think I found my style of dress. Hopefully I can find one in Canada that I like. Otherwise, I guess we'll be ordering one from the UK and altering it here. We'll see what happens!
Now I'm on vacay for a week and then starting an elective in family med.
Oh my god that exam was horrific. I just walking home realized that I answered two questions wrong, not to mention everything else I screwed up and don't know it yet. Everyone was talking about answers after the exam and it was killing me. I would prefer silence.
I don't know how i'm going to stop thinking about this all day and night and on the plane tomorrow. Ugh.
I swear that studying for this pediatric NBME is going to kill me. Seriously.
I have done the pre-test book and now I'm going over it to try and figure out the things I didn't know. Which is at least 40 percent of the material! Rashes, vitamins, syndromes, immune deficiencies. It's killing me. My brain hurts. Somebody (preferably a pediatrician) want to write it for me?
In good news, I leave for Scotland for a week on Saturday. I'm so excited to see Ben again! 3 weeks is too long to be away from my love.
I LOVE this song. Seriously. I strutted down the street to it today. I hope that someone will use it for a dance for "So you think you can dance" because I think it would be fab!
In other news, it's exam time yet again. I'm on peds and we have to write the pediatrics NBME exam on Friday. I am on call tomorrow and Tuesday night on NICU - which has been pretty hit and miss for me, but because of the 24h of life well-baby checks, I usually don't have a lot of time in the evenings to study. Thankfully, this means that I get Wednesday afternoon off and Monday afternoon off to sleep/study and I can study all day tomorrow when i'm on call. I've finished going over the review notes for peds and now I'm going over the pretest book, which I've heard is very accurate as to what is on the NBME. It looks right now as though it's going to be a lot about lead poisoning, vitamin deficiencies and toxicities and skin rashes. I'm going to have to brush up on a few things!!! I got 60.7 percent on the general pediatrics portion - mostly because I don't know diddly about vitamins or about weird immunodeficiencies of childhood. Not really emphasized in the Toronto notes. I have a bit of work to do!
Because studying is boring, and I'm getting sick of it, I have spent the last 15 minutes looking for potential haircuts. Yes, that's right, my exam is 2 days away and I'm fixated on haircuts. There must be something wrong with this picture! Anyway, I'm thinking about short hair. I'm thinking about keeping my hair long so I don't have to grow it out for the wedding, but that's a year away! I don't know what to do. These are some of the short styles I've been pondering:
I just don't know if I'm ready to take the plunge.
I spent my whole holiday day inside studying :( my roommates spent it going to the beach and drinking their faces off. They are also medical students and also writing an exam next Friday (although I have the additional fun of an oral exam this Friday) - why aren't they studying their faces off? I feel that this is most unfair. The advantage, however, is that they are making me dinner tonight (house taco night). Ben is in Scotland and I am here and I'm lonely. I feel like he's not missing me as much as I am him, but I guess if I hadn't seen my family in a year I might be the same way?
