House

So, some photos of our house...


The outside, we're the right half of the semi.

The open concept kitchen/living room/dining room
we're going to put an island with an eating bar area in to add counter space and fill in the tiled area.
The view from the kitchen.

The master bedroom with view into ensuite and hallway
Giant Bathtub!

A friend kindly gave us a gift certificate to a home store so we can buy a few things to make it feel like we've decorated. We only have our couch and bed that we're determined to keep, everything else can go, so we're looking for decorating ideas!!!

Vacation day 4... realized how bad I am at vacation when I'm the only one on vacation. Stress, stress, stress!

Marriage

So, buying a house will tell you all sorts of things about your husband that you never knew. For example, that he dislikes light coloured countertops and doesn't like a stone backsplash. Also, that he likes carpet in bedrooms and hates top loading washing machines. That he loves Dyson hoovers and hates California shutters (which I love). That we will have lots of compromises ahead!

Our mortgage finally went through to the lawyer. looks like we're going to own a house on Friday after all. I still can't sleep.

Sometimes when you can't cry about real life you can really have a good bawl fest during a sad TV show.

Tomorrow is my final day as a resident. ever. The big wide world is looming in the distance and I'm pretty scared. All month I've been thinking that I feel ready to be done, but this past day I've been worried. What if I forgot how to do family medicine in the last 6 months of being an OB/Gyn fellow? I'm going to miss the life of always having an attending around that I can call.

In other news of becoming a grown-up, Ben and I bought a house. So, I officially have no money and won't get any money until the ministry of health pays me sometime in Feb. So, I need to be smart with what remains of my savings. Thank goodness Ben has a steady paying job!

I feel burned out. I need vacation. I have lost some of my mojo and get up every morning after 8 hours of sleep feeling more tired than when I went to bed.

Today is the anniversary of the Montreal Massacre. Let us never forget these women and that they were killed simply for being female.

Geneviève Bergeron, aged 21;
Hélène Colgan, 23;
Nathalie Croteau, 23;
Barbara Daigneault, 22;
Anne-Marie Edward, 21;
Maud Haviernick, 29;
Barbara Maria Klucznik, 31;
Maryse Leclair, 23;
Annie St.-Arneault, 23;
Michèle Richard, 21;
Maryse Laganière, 25;
Anne-Marie Lemay, 22;
Sonia Pelletier, 28; and
Annie Turcotte, aged 21.

I survived my first sick baby. Survived but did not excel. It definitely revealed a few things to me that family medicine residency didn't prepare me for - putting lines in babies, reading newborn xrays, intubating babies, taking blood from babies. I praise the neonatal team for their mad skills and being so open to teach and having a skills day in the spring that they encouraged me to attend. I'll be there with bells on.

One of the most obvious things to me about almost not being a resident anymore is that the learning isn't going to stop and the learning curve is going to be very steep depending on where I end up. Biggest lesson learned: ask for help, don't be afraid to call the consultant back several times, stabilize stabilize stabilize and ship.