I guess I must be feeling a bit better because for the last 2 days I've been averaging 5 hours of studying per day. Pretty good for me, I usually get bored after about 3 or 4. I haven't, however, had much time to myself to do other things because of this excessive studying and I feel like this is going to have to be kept up for the next 5 weeks in order to pass the internal medicine NBME. It's a tuff lot of material to get through and I'm not really sure it's sinking in. I'm working on nephro right now because it's actually what I'm doing at the moment. When I get into cardio and stuff that I'm not doing, I wonder if I'll be able to remember any of it.

I downloaded Sara Bareilles' album "little voice" tonight and it's really good. I highly recommend it.

I'm currently reading 3 different books for bedtime reading. I'm finding it hard to finish any one book so I kind of alternate. The new one (The Memory Keeper's Daughter by Kim Edwards) is my current favorite and I have a feeling I'm going to finish it before the other two, which I started before it.

Anyway, I guess this study break should be over.

If someone could invent a cure for the common cold I would be their new best friend. I am so tired and worn out and I hardly have done anything in the past 3 days. I'm trying to study tonight and I have felt like I'm in a haze all day. I took some cough medicine last night and it did help me sleep, but gave me a foggy head so I think I'm going to take 1/2 the dose tonight. Nephro is killing me. The patients are just too complex for my liking. Thankfully one of my hardest ones is getting discharged tomorrow. I got busted today for not knowing when one of my patients got a colonoscopy - I had just acquired him yesterday and hadn't had a chance to review the chart fully. I tried to fake it during rounds but failed miserably. I feel like my brain has turned off! I didn't even put together that another one of my patients had had a parathyroidectomy and yet her PTH was still high. Duh. They missed a parathyroid gland. Ugh. If I don't start using my brain I'm going to be a pretty horrible doctor.

I am a bad blogger. I just finished ortho and now I'm starting medicine subspecialties - nephro x 2 weeks and then rheumatology x 3 weeks. I can already say that nephro is scary. Basically the fellow said we had to read nephro every night to get anything other than a "marginal pass". That coupled with the fact that i"m taking the internal medicine NBME - which means I have to read all of internal medicine in the span of 5 weeks, means I'm going to shit my pants every night. I also have to finish my CV for CaRMS so I can send it to my referees. I also forgot to ask one person to be my referee so need to now hunt him down to do so. I heard that asking people by email was bad... so I guess I have to find him in person, which is difficult. Ugh. I wish I was still on ortho. The nights were long and the mornings early, but at least I was kind of smart at it.

Argh. Today I got my CaRMS token (canadian residency matching service). Basically this is the computer system for the residency match. I haven't done anything and all these people were talking today about how they were making envelopes out to their reference letter people and making spread sheets and shit. i can hardly stay awake past 7 o'clock when I get home from stupid ortho. I am post-call tomorrow so maybe I'll get something done... maybe.