I hate it when you go and review guidelines and figure out you've been missing something in your clinical practice. At least Iwas reassured today by a doc who's been in practice 40 years that he does it too.

Boy.. wasn't that last post a bummer! Things really aren't that bad when it's not 9 o'clock and i'm alone sitting on my couch.

Ben and I are moving him from one apartment to another this weekend. I just got bleach all over my skirt. Note to self for future reference - don't bleach in nice brown jeanskirt that you like.

In other news, next week is my last week of psychiatry. It was more enjoyable than I originally anticipated but I wouldn't go so far as to say I enjoyed it. Maybe tolerated is a good word. Better than hate! Next I'm on elective. My elective is a bit light on scheduling right now but I'm sure I'll be busy just the same. It's 3 weeks until the wedding. Whew. it's getting close.

as the wedding gets closer, living on my own gets more difficult. I'm tired and stressed out. I get home from clinic around 6 or 6:30 and usually have to make some calls about the wedding or go to a meeting or make placecards etc. Then, I call Ben. I'd much rather see him than call him, I can tell you that. I find myself irritable on the phone and just wanting him to be here so he can help. I feel overwhelmed and lonely.

Some days it's really hard to get from my kitchen to work. Especially when work is psych.

well, i'm half way through my psych month and what have i learned? psych is 90% depressing and 10% somewhat uplifting... I haven't seen the 10% yet but I'm holding out. The only call I've done this month is OB call that I snuck in to my schedule. Psych doesn't seem to care whether I do call or not... and I'd rather not. I got enough emerg psych on emerg and I'm sure I will when I'm on my emerg rotation in a few months here.

Wedding plans are going well. Things seem to be coming together. Our catering meeting is tomorrow and I'm going with my Mum because B has to work. I think we're going chicken and salmon, corn on the cob, salads. Why are weddings so expensive? I'm going to my "bachelorette" on Saturday - 3 of us having a nice dinner and sleeping in a hotel. Nothing too fancy or out of control, just the way my type A personality likes it. I had my wedding dress fitting the other day and I felt really pretty in it. Looking forward to the day (30 days until the big 12th of September and counting). I had a lovely wedding shower the other week and now there are Sophie Conran boxes stacked all over our apartment. I'm going to have to start buying a lot of hats or something to store in all these hat shaped boxes!