as the wedding gets closer, living on my own gets more difficult. I'm tired and stressed out. I get home from clinic around 6 or 6:30 and usually have to make some calls about the wedding or go to a meeting or make placecards etc. Then, I call Ben. I'd much rather see him than call him, I can tell you that. I find myself irritable on the phone and just wanting him to be here so he can help. I feel overwhelmed and lonely.