I had one of those cold sweat mornings where you wake up worried about a patient and wondering if they're ok. On the intellectual side, I'm 90% sure of my diagnosis and that I did the right thing, on the emotional side, I am worried. Sometimes being a doctor sucks.

I know I should say that my first day was great and that it was so much fun and I loved it, but it was completely and utterly exhausting, mind numbing and scary. I only had to see 15 patients because they're going easy on me for the first little while, and at times I was twiddling my thumbs, but at times I had real head scratchers. And, at times, I was just at a loss. Apparently I'm bad at chronic msk pain. I already knew I was bad at that, but I feel like I'm failing at it. I guess there's some reading to do.

tomorrow I become an attending physician. eek. Wish me luck.

Ok, I found curtains that I like but Ben doesn't like them. How long will I leave them up pinned to the door frame before he groooows to like them?

In other news, I love these:

Both sets of curtains have been rejected. Back to the drawing board. Just as a note - those are website pictures, our walls are actually a taupe/mushroom colour!

Who knew that buying a house didn't end with buying a house... it involves toothbrush holders and toilet brushes and laundry hampers and blinds and curtains and mini garbage bins for the loo and kitchen islands and dining tables and .... lots of stuff. Stuff that involves going to 20 different shops because you can't find the right one!!!!! Our apartment seemed full. Our house seems empty and somewhat pathetic :)

Right now I'm trying to decide on curtains that both Ben and I will like. He's not available to go to the shop so I keep bringing them home and hanging them up for him to veto... we're on curtains number 4 and 5, let's keep our fingers crossed! What I have realized is that I'm going to have to sew blackout material on the back of these fashion curtains because they're much more sheer then they look in the shop! Even the ones that are lined! (oh, and while I"m on that, why line a dark brown curtain in white fabric, it totally discolours the curtain when the light shines through it, making it look purple). I think they'll look better at night. Now hanging:


opinions?!?

Happy New Year everyone! As usual, I didn't actually see the new year come in as I was in bed at 10 o'clock. However, I did drink to the Scottish new year (7pm EST) and we had our new year's Haggis, Neeps and Tatties.

I have one more week off before starting REAL work. I'm scared and unsure of how things will go. I hope well. There are a few key study points for this week to get me ready... most namely the new Ontario immunization schedule, which came out while I was doing my fellowship and is a bit of a pain to remember the ins and outs of. Need to read up on rotateq. Also need to complete getting my OB privileges at the hospital. Today, though, is new year's day and a day of rest! May the new year bring you happiness, health, and reduced work hours :)