Wednesday, February 20, 2008

guilty

I spend a lot of my life feeling incredibly guilty. If I overlook something and someone feels like I've been neglectful or rude, I feel incredibly guilty. If I make an honest mistake, I beat myself up over it for days. I can't let things go. I guess maybe it's because I really care what other people think of me. I don't know. Anyway, I have to learn how to let things go.

3 comments:

Liana said...

Hmm. Are you Catholic, by any chance?

I also feel perpetually guilty. I got 4 hours of sleep yesterday while on call, and I feel guilty now that I'm not in clinic. Despite my contract. Despite my preceptor telling me I didn't have to come in.

Yup, it's weird.

medstudentitis said...

haha, no not catholic, but I feel like I have the old fashioned Catholic guilt complex! Glad to hear you feel the same way sometimes!

XE said...

I have the same guilt thing. Even for stupid things, like I was asked to buy milk but I forgot. (I'm not Catholic either!)
I messed up something small while prepping a patient for surgery once (when I did vet med) and I felt absolutely horrible for weeks. Thinking back to it, I still feel absolutely awful.

I'm kinda glad to hear that I'm not the only one...