I'm having weird fluttery chest feelings. I've been having them for about 2 months but they've really stepped up in the past week. Originally I thought they were esophageal spasms not cardiac and I have no other cardiac symptoms, but, my pulse was a bit irregular today. I have a doctor's appointment next Friday so let's hope I can wait until then.

Blog Spam

What's up with people leaving lame ass comments just so they can advertise their own blog? I'm sure the information in this blog is "well layed out and thoughtful" but I'm pretty sure you also didn't read it Mr. nutrition blog. I'm going on a quest - from now on I'm deleting all such comments.

Idle Threats

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Yesterday I got an email from one of the administrative assistants of a department at my medical school saying that if I didn't locate and hand in an evaluation (that I thought was handed in) I wouldn't convocate with my class. I had emailed said admit assistant 3 weeks ago to ask about the form and never heard back, so I thought the doc who had the form had handed it in. Turns out he didn't. He also didn't reply to any of my emails. I spoke with his secretary yesterday and she had no idea where the form was.

After a day of stressing myself to death, the form was in this morning.

Too much stress for LMCC studying time.

The weatherman lied

Well, Saturday morning WAS gorgeous. But, I am still resentful that the weather man lied and Sunday was a bit more dreary than expected. Also, weather.com said maximum 1 mm of rain on Saturday, I laugh to hear it, the torrential downpour definitely yielded >1mm.

In other news, Ben and I didn't go to the race this weekend. Instead, we went biking for 3 hours on Saturday morning/afternoon at Albion Hills then went to my parents house and made surf and turf bbq in the rain. Pickerel mmmm. The biking was good. Made me realize how out of shape I am and how much I need to step it up if we're going to do the Duke's 8 hour later in May. Thankfully, after my exam I have nothing else to do except line up at the passport office to get a new passport.

Gorgeous day

It's a wonderful beautiful sunny day outside and I am studying... bah humbug. I'm going to go sit outside and pretend to read the Toronto notes. Then I'm going for a run, because I need to enjoy this sunshine. Hallelujah, winter's over! We hope.

sad news. today, after 6 years of loyal service, my ipod bit the dust. I loved that thing. Huge, white, high tech that became low tech. No click wheel. Buttons that are not too uber sensitive. Ah, ipod, I hearted you and now you're blank and don't have the necessary files to connect to my computer. Sounds like your wee hard drive is fried.

Should I get another? Or is there some new fancy music device on the horizon.

Got back on the bike today after Sunday's challenging times. Bum was sore, neck was sore, elbow was sore, but otherwise ok. Too windy though!

Well, I finished 60k without training for it. I guess this is the best thing I can say about the ride yesterday. In truth, it was really really hard. The wind was a direct headwind gusting 50km/h which made it brutal. It was cold and the ground was quite wet - making the grass sections sodden and a difficult slog. The singletrack, however, was fun. About 40k into the race I started cramping. First my adductor longus, then my quads to the point where I couldn't flex or extend my legs and I had to semi-crouch and bang my legs for a few minutes with my fists, then my gasterocs. Nobody else knows how cramps feel unless they're also suffering. There was a girl on another girl/boy team who was suffering as much as I was with hideous cramps. We would both ride for 15 or so minutes and then have to get off and stretch and the other one of us would pass on one of our riding stints. We must have switched places with them 20 times. At some points in the race I must have been pinching my median nerve with my handlebars because I started getting shooting pains in my hands and 4th and 5th fingers. That was fun.

All in all I learned a few things for next year... oh and there will be a next year, and I won't suck. I will train. I will eat while on the bike. I will figure out which fancy bike food works best for me because trying to eat granola bars with dry wind blown dust mouth was not working. The only things I could eat yesterday were jellybeans and fruit leather. I drank gatorade but it wasn't enough. Oh, Paris to Ancaster, next year you will rue the day you messed with me.

Yesterday was my last day of medical school. It really hasn't sunk in yet. I have my LMCC part 1 in 2 weeks time and I feel very under studied. Tomorrow we're doing a 60k bike race which we're not very well trained for. Wish us luck!

I hate when you go to bed knowing someone is going to deliver. It seems like such a tease. But.. she's a primip... maybe nothing will come of it.

I really want to spend all morning messing around on the internet instead of studying... hmmm. The LMCC is coming at a really bad time for me in terms of my motivation to get any studying done. I have about 3 weeks left to study for it and I have SO MUCH left to do. Seriously.

Baby Count

I think my baby count is up to 4, 7 if you count C-sections. I wish we had ore. If I was here on weekends I think I could be up to 6 vaginal deliveries. I think I'm improving with my dexterity with each one to be able to do more myself with the coordination of cord gases and baby care and placenta management :) When it's just the Mom things don't seem very complicated, but when you're looking after the baby too, there's an added layer of complexity. My vaginal laceration sewing is getting better too. Of course, nobody wants anyone to have a tear (I managed one tear-less delivery) but the jigsaw puzzle of tissue is starting to make more sense now. It's funny how when you look at enough of them they actually start looking like something...

Fight

Argh. I got into a fight with my mom. I hate fighting. You know when you want someone's opinion, but you want them to like what you like? We were doing really well over email with suggestions and corrections. Over the phone, not so well.

Today Ben and I went for a 45 km training ride. As Ben says, we were riding temp piano. It took us about 2 and a half hours. Hopefully when we're riding tempo forte it will be a lot quicker. We're ramping up to ride Paris to Ancaster in two weeks time. We're doing the 60k, which is longer than either of us have raced before without it being a relay. Ben is nervous. Maybe ignorance is bliss, but I'm pretty stoked.

The haircut went ok, but she chopped a little more than I'd like. Plus, she spent the whole time insulting my previous hairdresser. Not the way to have me come back again. It's not my hairdresser's fault that I'm growing out my pixie cut into wedding hair. Jeeze.

I'm going into my last 2 weeks at this family doctor's office. It's been a really good learning experience. I'm going to have to get off my ass and finish the course work for this block - some logs about patients, a community description and readings for a MCQ online quiz. I found out the other day that I passed the surgery exam, which is awesome. No more worries about that. Now I just have to get one of the supervisors to hand in an evaluation that he has lost somewhere and I'll be able to graduate. Maybe. :)

2 weeks and counting until the end of med school!

I'm getting my haircut today. I'm not confident that the lady is going to understand "just a trim" because they never do, do they? I have another 6 months to grow out my hair for the wedding and I don't want any setbacks! Not that the hair is all that important. It's more the tiara that's the important part :)

Sorry for not updating. Things are good. I've delivered 2 babies this week so far and it's only Wednesday. We had a section last night too and it went very smoothly. I'm getting ready to order my wedding invitations and my sister is going to help me make my second invitations for Scotland. I hope they don't look daft. I hope I don't have to pay huge duty on the invitations coming from the states. Why can't I get cute bicycle and bird invitations in Canada?