Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Everyone is Pregnant

Lots of people I went to med school with or residency or know professionally from my year are pregnant. Lots. And, I am very happy for them. But, it makes me wonder - will I ever feel that biological drive to have a child? to be honest, I really like my life how it is. I like that I don't have to go drop kids off at daycare and that I can go for a long bike ride on a weekend with Ben without worrying about babysitters. I like that my house is neat and tidy some of the time and that we have no toys other than Ben's Lego. I hold a lot of babies and they're cute and all but I never get sad that I get to given them back. But, I worry that our life won't feel complete or full. I worry that we'll regret it down the road, especially when we're old and lonely. I'm not sure that just the two of us is enough to make a whole life, I mean, aren't we eventually going to get bored of each other?

I'm confused.

Sunday, March 03, 2013

Medical Bullying

During this 3 weeks of OB call and 9 deliveries, I had to call for 2 OB consults. Both times the same person was on call. Both times this individual belittled me, bullied me and once even tried to refuse to see my consult. Why? Because he didn't want to get up in the night to see a patient. No interest in what's best for the patient or her baby, but pure self interest. Both times he told me my care of the patient was unacceptable. Both times he stormed in and hardly assessed the patient before saying she needed to go to section. One time he was right and one time he was wrong and she went on to deliver vaginally. I will never work at this hospital in obstetrics again. Never. I feel so horrible about both situations that I just can't face ever having to work with this individual again. The nurses and midwives tell me that he does this to everyone. I think that is totally unacceptable. He also didn't round on my patient post-section at all and had the nurses call me to come in and write her a prescription for her discharge medications even though I was at home and he was in the hospital. What an ass.